- blueberrymarshmella
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United States- 1 week, 1 day ago
...wish I could close my eyes and go to sleep....Mr. Sandman, why don't you visit me anymore?...
- bigassmidget
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- He lives in the bottom of a tequila bottle. But you have to drink what's inside to get to him
- blueberrymarshmella
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- Oh..I love tequilla...lol Well, mixed with something fruity of course, but unfortunately its 4:30 am here and I am 30 minutes away from the nearest anything store..and I have two kids to lug around...I'll have to take a pass on Mr. Tequila tonight...
- bigassmidget
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- I'm going out on Friday. I'll tell him you said Hi.
- blueberrymarshmella
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- Thanks alot =P
- bigassmidget
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- No problem. He has a distant cousin twice removed... Maybe you're heard of him? Goes by the name of Nyquil?
- blueberrymarshmella
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- haha...Nyquil makes me hyper...lol I hate taking that junk. My children are the same way. Medicines that are suposed to help you rest and feel better do the opposite to us, but my husband on the other hand can take one dose and be knocked out for hours...lol
- bigassmidget
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- Oh yeah me to. I lick the cap of the bottle and I'm out cold. How long has it been that you can't get to sleep?
- blueberrymarshmella
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- A few months..lol About 3...I think. I went through some life changing events and things just havne't been the same for me anymore. My husband works a weirdo job and is never here, so I couldn't really sleep when he isn't here before hand but atleast I got some sleep. Now its like I try and try but I will fall asleep for like an hour at most and I am awake. But my body eventually does take revenge on me..lol Every once in a while I'll be relaxing on the couch or something and I get knocked out for hours...lol
- bigassmidget
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- Oh yeah it is. I totally agree with that. Being selfish sometimes is what we need. And yeah changing is never easy. I see it as one of the hardest things any human has to do. Praying to me is a touchy subject. Not because I do it and believe it but because I don't and that is why I don't talk about to people since I have respect for their beliefs. And I'm glad you have inspiration. It actually reminds me of a short story I read once. I can sent it to you via message on here if you like.
- blueberrymarshmella
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- I know change is a part of life rather we are ready for it or not. Change is also sooo hard, but if we never had it life would get really monotonous. My body is changing and dealing with things in its own time and unfortunately sleep is something that has got all screwed up. I pray so much about everything but it seems pretty useless eomtimes, I know that sounds awful, but it is true. I undertsand everything you are telling me, and I don't think you sounded condescending at all. I am just gonna deal with things as the come and hopefully out of all these problems and being sleep deprived =) I will become a better person in the end. There for a while, nothing in my life was in my control and was just there..empty..but now things are better and I am realizing so much about myself and everything I ever thought was set in stone but really wasn't. I may have some inspiration of my own but it maybe selfish, but its okay to be selfish sometimes...lol
- bigassmidget
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- Life's change all the time and at the risk of sounding like I am condescending which I'm not we all hove have to evolve and grow out of it. But it takes something extra in us. Something that is inside us that still has no word for it. Love for my wife and inspired mine. But love alone did not make it happen. The unfair feelings you have are not ridiculous at all. That is the thing I am talking about. That one thing you have in you that needs to come out. And slowly it is. Live off of that. You've changed once do it again. This time you have control over it and this time can be for the one thing you really want.
- blueberrymarshmella
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- So much stuff happened in a short time and it's like I got lost somewhere in that time. I had surgery and then a cancer scare and well, I dealt with all of this alone and my body sorta reprogrammed itself. More than just my sleep patterns has changed and sometimes I am scared of the person I am becomming..I know this sounds ridiculous.... I know the unfair feeling, cause my kids want me to do things sometimes and I feel like a truck ran over me, but then sometmes I sleep and feel awful too..soo..either way I am all messed up =) I amhoping though and praying that one day everything will go back to normal.
- bigassmidget
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- I can relate to that actually. Not in the sense like you but I can. When I got back from the middle east I had a horrible time sleeping. I tried everything I could but I couldn't I was in a place I wasn't used to. And just like you when I relax somewhere... Literally anywhere I would fall asleep for hours at a time. I could be sitting at a backyard barbecue with friends and fall asleep. Eventually though I just decided that i need to sleep for those around me. In my case it was for my wife and daughter. It wasn't fair to them that I was always feeling run down and tired all the time. I know it's easier said than done. But you have to find your new comfort zone.